Two TYPES

     I see people use this framework a lot.  Reductionist, of course, but telling at times.  I contrast people who are proud when they are praised, and those who are humbled.  Being a humbled kind of guy, and thinking my way is better than being Prideful, a sin for a reason.  Whether spiritual or not one can often see the logic in religious rules like not killing, lying, fornicating at the wrong time, you know, etc..., and all kinds of things people do anyways.  But they often lead to trouble, and over time humans learned this.  We still do it.  Each generation a few have to learn for themselves.

 Before I was a drugged out, barely functioning person, suffering under severe mental stress from being thrust into a war and not even knowing what the sides are.  I am still fairly certain I am now on the sides of cats, who seem to be taking over, as they do in the media.   I do not know enough about the groups to join them, merely to assist when I can to serve and protect.  This starts with Harris.  We protected them in those vital days after congress passed a bill, and tried to make the sausage in the usual way.

Is this how racist the republicans and most democrats really are...  equality is natural to me.  A damaged ego from fat shaming by myself and others.  Who cares now... well, I do not wish others to have it.  My association with body image bothers me.  I changed so much.  I wanted things to be as they were before.  But that was never going to happen.

In the news, Harris is trying to avoid talking about the war in Gaza in true terms.  She has a real problem with this.  I see she is going to try to ride this through November but I think this is a mistake.  A true effort at demanding peace, and getting it, from Israel, is required.  This mass murder cannot be hidden.  The protests may have mostly moved on line and into the hearts and minds of the world in the west, but this is a fire that will burn, and times uncontrollably.

This leads to the brown coat pig who was to be the Guardians' mascot.  I could not see how my vision of a night watchmen at a castle, making rounds at night and saying all is well, or standing on a castle wall.   I had seeming memories of this when I went vision hunting.  I made none of that up.  The only thing I made up was  sneer when you mentioned Putin and nukes for awhile.  Like I would ever have any involvement with either, let us hope.  Unless it is to bring peace to one, and non existence for the latter.   

I believe you have made me a Nazi.  Long ago someone tried to show me a film saying Hitler's vision was not to kill Jews...  it went on, but this was during the beginning of this, when I had no idea what huge group was behind me.  I could not listen, I was so sickened by what I had seemingly been sucked into.  Later the anti-semitism of the people I worked with was not mine, something I never advocated and never would.  No one deserves to be stereotyped.  I judge, yes, but individual behaviors.    I try to keep it to the action, telling myself the whole person has some intrinsic, Adlerian worth.  

I w   atched the man in the ivory tower, I think, about Nazi's and the Japanese winning ww2.  Then the USA in the end coming back to their ways, after playing Nazi as long as they had to, then gain their independence.  If I have somehow ended up in this group, then I am merely eye candy of some sort.  If my writing seems like any kind of dog whistle to hate Jews or anyone else, you are taking me wrong.

I will never judge someone for their religion.  I realize now I have been overly judgemental towards all Zionists.  People are born into such things, etc...  I see a man whose relative is a hostage, and many died in the attack on their liberal community.  As a human being who refuses to hate others, who feels the pain from all sides.  I have for years written about the Palestinians.  The cruelty surrounding them exceeded anything I saw.  I now see the bared teeth of the viper here, and they are a squirming nest, which will not stop until all but the snakes are alive.  Or I can see humans, as trapped in their time and place and history as everyone else.

I have had wisdom forced upon me by God, not man.  I did not know how to serve God and serve man, until situations arose where it was obvious, like saving a president.  This was not a matter of my starting and then leaving a revolution.  They had one going but I was in no state to go along, and might not have had I been tempted.... but nowhere along the line did any one in my direct life do something to tempt me.  Other than the gorgeous woman who lived by us on Estes, who I thank God I did not sleep with.  To use her like that would be heartbreaking to me now.  God would not allow such a thing, I became married six years into living with mary ann.  Three times as long as I lived with my wife.  Between her hospitalizations taking two years of our marriage. 

Am I always to mourn.  Yes, though that is just me.  I do not wish to impose, of all things, more sorrowful thoughts in peoples minds.