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THE CIVIL WAR

 The Blue states are richer, and much more centralized than one tends to think.  Chicago has more people than the rest of the state.  This is the case with many blue states.  We pay taxes, and the red states get welfare from us, the liberal's they are angry with and want to 'own.'  All we need do is connect to the Michigan by taking the top part of Ohio and Indiana, and we would have a blue front.  On the west coast, again, LA and California in general has more people than many countries, and all states.  They are surrounded by blue states.  And the red ones, again, have just a few people compared to the cities.

I saw a map of the blue and red states and was surprised to see a way to fight this battle, with minimum damage and disruption of day to day life.  I do not want a change that erupts into Chaos.  This is why Government workers would be increased to the point they can do their jobs.  The IRS should be collecting the billions the rich do not pay on.  We will change the laws back to the pre-Reagan era.  70% for anything over a few million.  I do not know what things are worth.  I guess the change is no billionaires.  When someone has five hundred million they need to be taxed.  To spend it on fancy weddings, when you would have a wedding where you stop hunger in the world, give away that money as a thanks to the world.  But no.  Just being a Robber Baron.

The transition I see is a military court because the armed forces is the only group powerful enough now to stand up to a president with a criminal Supreme Court, many of which lied to get elected.  These lies mean they are impeached.  Whatever is fair at this point.  The powers they have given Trump are unprecedent in a Democracy.  

I used to write a lot about revolutions, when I did not know I had any influence.  ALL I knew was all these shows were lying about me.  Trying to say two instances were used as some signal.  I showed you now twice how I feel about such matters.  I have destroyed a lot of organizations, and I have also worked with wonderful people who I wish no harm to.  I do not want people who call themselves communists to feel threatened by me, unless you are harming the USA.  I love the people of China, and this was not an organization that I will let effect this.   These groups were too powerful, I felt, and had done horrible things.  You might have noticed that I let few things go unpunished.  I do not have to do a thing, God acts.  

I learned about what happened when you told me.  I was so sick.  Washing my hands.  I heard Monk saying, 'He is washing his hands more than me."  I hope people know I do not drop names.  I write about celebrities as huge question marks?   I loved artsy people, improv folks, doing a play and bonding was wonderful, etc.. I have had so many dealings thru tv and radio, that at this point I am wary, never will really trust any of you again.

I do wish the left to know that when I think of mistakes, which came to me when I was taken over by something.  I do not know if they have trigger words that make me behave a certain way.  The Jesus brain washing was so great, and this started long before I knew.  I believe the dream about being in a Catholic Church reuniting with my wife.  Jesus was coming, I was telling people... the euphoria was something perhaps some of you felt?   Then the cloud came down and was empty.  This is because the could came to me with a rock band.  Sadly glam.  Bowie's last album, in 2016, was again based on whatever lies the media may or may not have believed.  So many of them came out.  I will not watch it again.

I wrote so much about freewill, but I painted we should lie to them, because they always lie.  I wrote words of death, with no clue...

Now, I am seeing Green in a symbol that I pray does not mean something vulgar.  The tattoo I know means something.  Mark Wahlberg had a four leaf clover.  I later heard in a movie a guard asking a guy if he had one of these... he said, No, you have to earn them.  He did not know why, and this jewelry might not be one damn thing...   So many of you think I am your enemy.  I saw what you did with the book of Ridgway, which you changed into lies.  Then said, words certainly not in the original, and a Ridgway was killed by an Irish man.  Nothing like the original at all.  Propaganda.  I resent this but there is nothing I can do.

I do not want them using me.   This is hard when I do wish to be a bridge between the left and the right, and using the police and protestor's  peacefully to march.  A guy called a Peacekeeper stopped a mass shooting at a protest.  I advocated for these things, as did others of course.  The lessons I read about the sixties radicals I forgot.  Spies came into my life without me knowing a thing.

Now I look back at the spies and cannot believe what they were dying.  Told two guys evidently killed a brown person and a salmon, which I thought was pink and for gay.  When I realized what I was dealing with..  fucking killers.  For a cause I would have fought.  The last time I saw him I said hello and shook his hand before the shadow world crept in and I could barely believe I just let him go...

I am now in a situation that I do not understand?  I believe a mix of white cats are my kin.  I appreciate your coming together.  Knowing you are there gives me hope.  Because by now you know how I feel, and a lot of you are over this phobia of blacks and others..  curiosity is the best way to meet another, not with wariness.  I knew this in the cab, where I fearlessly drove day and night, one of the few cab drivers who picked up blacks.  I heard this too many times...

I have nothing against the Irish in general.  I am not stereotyping them, even if in Chicago there has been a lot of corruption, allowed as the Daly system.  Everyone around him went to jail, but not Richard.  I pray this is because he did not know how to unravel the mess.  I wish him the best.  I regret getting angry now when I do.  I still do.  I am reactive.  If you are going to keep me in the dark forever, than I will write in the dark.  But I do not feel anger at Daly.  I have always been fond of him.  I apologize to all who were hurt by my words, and ask your forgiveness.x

I have shown you miracles and wonder.  While others faked things around me.  I am sorry I scared you that day at the beach.  A woman told me they screamed and cried.  I had just been abused in a hospital, for God knows how many times that year, and I was in terrible pain.  I pretended I was blind, trying to tell you, I do not know what is going home.  I was made homeless that weak end, I think... not sure.

The point is Superman woke up thinking everyone was an enemy...  This is how life seemed to me.  I tried to be kind to people, but when we got a little close they were talked to and looked at me with fear.  How could the guy who fixed my computer, strangers at first.  Then one day all happy, they said, JOHNNY PAIN.   THEN he looks at me with terror the last time we passed one another on the street.

This was right during the period when I took my great fall.  When I was off line, though people liked what I wrote, seemingly, based on the upstairs neighbor who banged on the ceiling when I needed to really watch what is on, or I should stop what I was doing, etc.  I hope to God those men are alright.  I regret this action.  I wish I could say THEY ARE IN HEAVEN and your pain would be lifted.  Most who die fighting me or fighting with me go to Heaven.  There were people 

Flip up to now.   The Simpsons show me Orange.... Once more I blundered into something accidently, said words I thought would mean nothing, but seem to have grown into an organization that had nothing to do with me.  No blacks, like I have said, is a red flag.  All people need to be at the table.  Mayor Johnson's demographics are straight up like the people almost, still mostly white.  

Biden came to Chicago to say goodbye to me, and thank me.  So I saved a few presidents, now I am being accused of keeping the Empire going.  The new Dune, which is nothing like any of the books, is about me.  Explaining my powers as having been tortured and etc.  I know my mother kept me from making millions in a lawsuit, intentionally.  What kind of mother does such a thing?  The type who hate men.  Well, women who hate men, I understand.  However, I hate some behavior of men but I sure as hell do not hate them.

The signals I used to see is sadly now kind of left to Democracy Now.   I do not know if they consider me friend or foe?  Obviously, Juan has been sent to Chicago, a Buffalo Jail in Intelligence.  Something I did led to him leaving New York, and he obviously misses New York.  I am sorry Juan.  

I forget that I should not let people use their hatred of me to not watch Democracy Now, or be a guest, or a musical guest.  They used to have a studio where people played music.  I take it that this has ended, though I could be wrong.  I wish I could just ask you if I should quit watching this show.  They give out essential intelligence though it is cognizant dissonance, compared to what the groups at the top are doing.  A level I will never be of interest enough for them to want to meet me.

I do not know what is going on.  The Catholic Church, and all Christians, need a culture of inclusion, especially with the coming Climate Crises.  Priests and other shepherds have to make sure destructive cults do not take over.  All with wolves in sheep clothing.   We must make sure Ethics survive.  There are conservatives who look out only for themselves, allowing people to starve for their five houses and a yacht.  I do not despise them for this, but I do bring a message from beyond what you call the end times...  and you should be giving back to the future, most of the fortune you have amassed.  The world is going to die.  Right now we can still prepare.  We wait too long, or let people believe the lie the Climate Change is not real.  The facts are in, and now that the rich think they are going to die, they are selfishly building their own shelters, like the Government.

I will use God himself to save the people of this planet from suffering.  I will seek peace for all.  I will seek food and shelter for all.  I will work the opposite of peace through strength.   We need peace, that requires strong peacemakers.   The left will need to arm up if the right starts shooting at protesters.  Then you will need drones all over the place, watched by a series of folks, running the same grid over and over, seeking the sight of a gun, who is identified to a sniper... or taken out by the watcher.. while still alerting the sniper and place of the terrorist.  Two shots are better than one.  Sad if it comes to this, but I can see this being a very powerful tool,  flown with a scope, high up almost un=noticed

So this entry ends with once more, with a plea to allow the Shepherds access to their starving flocks in Gaza, Sudan, the US, and any place children wake up hungry with no breakfast coming.  God forgive us for these murders.  Please allow us to cleanse our collective soul, before this country ends up fertile ground for demonic possession, and yeah that is a metaphor to some...  does not matter.  

Big Love.

Juneteenth Day

 I remember reading 

the statue of liberty

was first a slave breaking free of chains.

The horrible Irony to an anti-racist

comes right back as I think of this,

the dread of the racism our friends are effected by all the time

The blacks expect it and the whites think it does not exist.

The old white guy's society

changed the statue,

decided to make history their myth,

throwing out the facts;

The Woman Slave went from being 

dragged from their homes and enslaved

then becoming free..

Into an Icon of welcoming immigrants.

who were not arriving chained in the bottom of  a boat.

Did the white supremist

see the evil Irony? 

I will not blame victims

of a system that has built in hurdles in their rat race.

Like the white guys who cannot understand

why a lot of black guys are out of work.

Never put two and two together or haven't seen enough

whatever

the Institution of Racism seems 150 years ago

when this country had slaves.

I do not argue with them anymore

they are too ignorant of too much

if they are racist, Islamophobic, filled with hate.

White guys who did not get checked for weed all the time

like the blacks 

who filled the prisons,

lost the ability to vote.

Became cheap state labor.

Diminished expectations destroying genius's

Now that weed is legal

all those years in prison?

Wasted lives, the singer sings.

Jesus talking

 

I will out-last the madness of Trump.

A footnote in a classified file,

or an International Star Making Clear --

You could only destroy me

If I had given into temptation 

to sensualize my life.

Just have to live with lies about race

unscientific crap that I knew better than

as a kid who read books 

by people who made racists out as evil.

My morality is mine to live and die for.

Mine, and yours... or not so much.

Now I sit back as people take sides and want to kill each other off.

My body shakes with righteous rage 

as my fingers tap the keyboards,

telling a horror story

surrounded by the supernatural.

I am a creature whose power you at first

took as more than I will be for you.

You thought I was here to caste a net for your free will,

turn you into zombies,

or worse yet -- and redundant, destroy the world.

I have never had a desire to destroy the world.

I am here to free your will's...

to see God with your own eyes

and with the teaching of others.

Doesn't take a religion to know right from wrong.

God sure doesn't need your worship,

we can gather in his name to feel the power of God's love,

celebrate and mourn,

with the comfort of a loving God

On the other side

I cannot vouch for what happens after we die.

Too fine a point is a lie.

or before we are born.

I know we are souls in bodies.

I know I have powers to manipulate the weather

I know not to test God.  

You have seen his Fury now

expressed through the Christ,

Though it felt as if God were speaking,

not I.

Most of the time.

My words kept surprising me.

They came from a fury at this world for being unjust

To so many

My humanity felt like I was supposed to be rewarded

with a mansion and yacht 

for being famous.

God had  higher reasons,

Or men had their reasons

still do.

The Churches humble me

All the people in the black community

I know we are one family

And I will not dishonor my ancestors

By ever believing other.

To All the people in the white community

whom I have loved and lived with most my life,

I love you 

whether we believe differently

and I am right as hell.

We are in a class war.

The rich want all the money

to make slave labor

in the states out of the citizens.

their earthly riches could only destroy me

if I had been given them instead of being

kept in a cage.

God knows I would rather be in jail,

than let people die that time.

Nothing I have went through in my life

I would not go through worse to be the person

in the position I was.

What if I had wanted to lead a killer cult?

I stopped this when I heard about what was going on.

Same as the race war.

I have told you I would rather die than kill over skin tone

that I would die fighting for the side of Justice.

I feel like 

I AM the one 

who leads off away from this speck in space.

The Supernatural creature who refuses crowns

One who prefers to live deep in the shadows of another.

born a couple thousand years before...

Sent in the ways of another time and place/a different person

I never think about this.  The brainwashing.

sends my messianic thoughts away

almost all the time.

Too much has happened for me not to know God works through me.

God is there to comfort me when I fight into sleep

I go to him

the total blackness

on his side and the bright suns and planets on the other

God watches it all at once.

I love him and am in wonder of him

In the past I hated him at times.

The 'atheist' screamed at God when his first cat died.

Heavy always every death.

The stings too heavy to remember the great times.

Yet I ordered killing of people

to ensure my name was no longer

associated with their tactics

the scapegoat/punish the monkey

let the organ grinders go...

Some will feel I betrayed the revolutionary thinking...

I do not know always what to do

or who is behind what

how I can be moral and still operate in this world,

in a legal, military capacity?

After all I have been through..

DO NOT FOR A FUCKING SECOND

I AM not A VICTIM

WHO WAS BRAINWASHED

INTO ACTING OTHER THAN WHO HE WAS.

Now, it does not matter at all.

God has shown his power to me.

Cured the lonely gulf of atheism,

made real a loving creature

that created a plan we do not need to understand

anymore of than the obvious bits.

I am hated for the events this caused.

And those who were behind it.

Some

Are with trump and always were.

Or are new.

I do not care who is in the false thrones

narcissistic madness conjures.

I no longer can use the words of the cover.

The lies no longer come unbidden to my tongue.  

I have noted the influences I have in the Cardinal's Sermons

humbled, surprised.

One sermon preaching of Christ alive is enough for my ego.

Embarrassed me.

Told me how much heavier this heavenly crown is on earth, 

I am terrified of how God has worked through me.

A rebuke to humankind.

All I thought I was all that time.

Words that once thought

could never really go away

whether they had seen enough

to believe them yet or not...

God brings miracles to herald my presence.

You saw them.

Few in the boredom of my life, 

which I can 

has been noted by the churches though

 I was torn out of my cocoon too early

I struggled for years to get the strength I lost not developing muscles ripping out.

Fighting you and everyone else in the process.

After I felt abandoned, though I seemed to ask for this

perhaps?

I was abandoned by the people on the list of industrialists and others

who Peace said was backing us.

I thought we were getting rich from advertisers.

That was all.

I certainly did not mean to give any orders

or go along with any

to harm anyone.

I hold no vengeance in my mind either

abhor the idea of revenge.

I would NEVER use soldiers precious lives

over what has been said or done to me.

There has been punishment enough

around here, I am told.

What you tried to involve me in

Echoes of Escape.

From people who I do not know.

Maybe into a pit of torture?

Because I would not only not go along...

with people

who will not navigate 

as equals thru these rapids

of all people...  I would have to fight them

as well as a few words can that wish no violence inspired.

The ones you have sentenced to poverty and the streets

To death.  To rooms in old folks homes for decades.

To...  not having enough

 to pay the basic bills 

takes away your balance.

Makes you easier to mold

New Pope

    I noticed the Pope was chosen based on a tack placed in a Globe.   You see God working through me on the highest levels.  I did not expect it last time, or this time.  You almost chose our dear Cardinal.  He would have certainly been historic.  Well, he is. The one who communicates with the wild 'angel.'  I have learned much from him about the scripture.  I am in a phase right now where I know I am too ignorant to think of violence;  my mind simply will not allow it.  This is strange.  Like when in meditation I go for blankness and ignore the thoughts, but these cause more an anxiety, a feeling like I ... am panicking..  and the thought I am having ends before violence.

For many years I have been playing a character at times.  I am brave, but to think Machismo shows this is ridiculous.  I can remember vaguely trying to break this.  I see my words echoed by the radicals, the madness, the ability to believe any lie.  

I have quit lying now.  I feel naked.  Not in your sense.  Yes, I will follow your rules, if they do not impede my spiritual quest to somehow or another save souls, and lives.  I am here in your endtimes, not when the screaming and pain is too late to heal, but now when many things can be done to change the plight of some....  and balance the zealotry of Christians, and all religions, temper their hatreds with the love of God.  How empty the money hoarders in soul...  

I am 63 now and my story is certainly not over.  I do not know what is going to happen of course, but we will see.

My bravery is shown when I prove I would rather die than be involved in a race war.  We are in a class war, and any division of our forces is a problem.  I hate calling this a war.  It is more an infection of billionaires, hoarding some vital mineral, and it will be dealt with easily, or with great difficulty.  I tried to take from the rich and give to the poor.  I have little memory of what I did, or said.  I remember some of the pain I caused you.  The horrors.  I tried to protect the country, and clear my name. 

When you show me something if I do not believe you, that means quite often I know nothing about this.  I did not want orange to have anything to do with the other.  Given a car, again.  I told you I did not want a car.  I do not know what you were celebrating with Orange.  I thought it meant you were doing good things, but I was still an idiot about the race situation.  I believe in a form of history that requires seeing events from all sides.  Stand Point Theory.   This also says people in ghettos know how to fix their problems better than millionaires in Washington, DC.  

I do not want a color anymore.  Too much like churches, they come with a lot of fine print I do not agree with.  I think.  Maybe I am wrong?  If the left is yellow, then that I am.  If my 'family' is white regardless of their beliefs, I believe they are better off having a peacemaker in charge, or as a hostage.  You responded when I asked.  I thank you very much for the meow mix.  Does this bring me enemies?  If I am going to be hated for being moral, then fine.  I acted prior to this, and maybe all during this, after being brainwashed, and having my reality go insane.  The tv talking to me.

I think often of the beginning.  The car crashes.  I was still a million miles away from thinking my comedy had been taken too seriously.  My sorrow over such events is a cloud I live in, and a penitence I  deserve. These are the thoughts making up the quicksand that tries to suck me down... under the ground, sand filling my gasping lungs...  until lack of air turns off the conscious mind.